To: a Ex best friend& lover
this is not a new notion its very old and over due venerability. iv never been able to say a thing to your face and its been 5 years. 2 years longer then i considered you to be my everything. but then things changed you started hanging out with someone else you ditched me to go hang out with this person, it even seemed like you enjoyed their company more then mine…and on its own its a crappy thing to do to a person…but its even worse when it another girl, and despite considering you a loyal person, its a scary thought having someone be your everything, and feeling like your not enough, iv never been witness to a healthy relationship, so it makes things all the more scary, because i never wanted to get hurt the way i was starting to feel like i was…i took your love for granted and im sorry, but you also took my love for granted as well…I made alot of mistakes after things ended, and so did you, and im sorry for my mistakes, and i can only hope you are as well…but i wouldn’t know because we dont talk anymore, to the best of my knowledge you hate me…i hurt you and now you hate me. you weren’t just a lover you were a best friend i told you everything, there was no part of my life that you were not welcome to, and thats what hurts the most…because im not sure i can trust you, how can a trust a person that takes the things i do and say and makes fun of them behind my back…i wish i had figured out my feelings sooner, i wish i wasnt such a cowardice that i could have said it to your face when it mattered 5 years ago, instead im writing u a letter on tumbler cuz there is no way for you to ever read it and know just how sorry i am and how much i wish we were still friends, and wish i got a start over,and that i could be there when you need people in your time of need.
ill always be sorry.
best wishes: a cowered
